Time Flies

My life is passing by so fast I'm going to be 40 before I know it.  It seems like yesterday I was like Michael will be home in 2 months, and now it's a month... I'll blink again and he'll be here with me. Hum?  Another thing, I feel like me and Kendra are still the best of friends but I really haven't talked to her in like 3 weeks.  In Nener land it has only been a few days.  I am a shitty friend, and for that I apologize.  You are on your way over here right now and I am very happy about it. 

I feel different now than I ever have before.  I work, go to school, do homework, and sleep.  There isn't much time for anything else.  I haven't even really smoked pot but that's about to change, thank God.  I think that I've made myself so busy to get my mind off Michael, and it's turned into me neglecting things that need to be done.

I don't even shower every day anymore.  That's non-hygenic and I don't give a shit.  I feel like some old hermit or something.  I have piles and piles of laundry.  I had dishes but I broke down and loaded the dishwasher yesterday.  Yes I said dishwasher I don't even do them myself. I feel happy with myself but at the same time I'm not having very much fun.

I am 18 years old and I need to have more fun.  I am failing college though.  Here lately I've been trying to get caught up but.. it's stressful not being able to hang out with your friends.  Maybe if I didn't work till 3 am on the weekends I could get something accomplished.  Too bad for me. I'm making excellent $ and don't have anytime to spend it.  I have a check for $90 that I have had for 2 weeks and haven't cashed.  That's almost $100.  Oh well. 

Well Kendra's almost here I just called her.. so I guess I'll get off here and look at this psychology for just one minute.  Have a great rest of the day.

- Stephanie

P.S.   I didn't add any color or anything to this one. Poo, I will next time I swear.